Age: 23(24 in August olllllld!)
Height: 5'10.5
Weight: 196.8(though I haven't checked in a while. I'm going to wait until next week.)
Dress Size: 10/12
Highest Weight: 200
Lowest Weight (at height): 159
Goal Weight: 120, 115 is my ultimate goal weight
Favorite Diet Food: diet sodas, fresh veggies, high protein/low calorie bars
Favorite Binge food: CHOCOLATE
Favorite Exercise: bike riding, hula hooping
Favorite Thinspo: skinny little chicken legs and concaved tummies
Where Do You Slip Up: whenever I'm with my boyfriend :(
When Did It Start?:
Hating your body: When I was 8-9 years old, when I began my steroid treatments
Restricting/counting: Same time.
Does Anyone Know: Everyone knows I have food "issues" Only you guys know how deeply
You Want Help: I want help to have more control. That's all I've ever wanted.
How Many Calories Do You Consume A Day: Some days 0, some days it feels like 1,000,000
What Do You See When You Look In The Mirror: someone who has beautiful features, but doesn't deserve them because I can't even control the food I put in my mouth
Are You In A Relationship: ...Kind of.
Are You Depressed: Sometimes
Ever Tried To Commit Suicide: Yes.
Ever Been To A Psychologist: No, but I need to.
I AM -
[x] anorexic
[x] ednos
[] bulimic
[] living off diet pills
[x] hungry
[x] thirsty
[x] drinking something
[] Under 100lbs
[x] starving yourself
[] participating in a fast
PEOPLE -
[] ask if I’m anorexic/bulimic
[x] call me fat (never to my face though)
[x] say I’m skinny(It's just cause they are super fat)
[] say I’m ugly
[x] say I’m pretty
[x] spread rumors about me
[x] force me to eat
[x] say I eat too much
[x] wish I’d eat more
I WISH -
[x] I was THIN
[x] I had a better body
[x] I didn’t have to eat
[x] I could control myself
[x] I was under 110lbs
[x] I could avoid food
[x] I could hide what I am
[x] I wasn’t fat
[x] I was pretty
[] I could stop being ana/mia
I LOVE -
[x] feeling hungry
[x] seeing a difference when fasting
[] shaking
[] being weak
[x] losing weight
[] being anorexic/bulimic
[x] green tea
[x] diet pills
[x] being able to turn down food
[x] feeling good about myself
APPEARANCE -
[] I am shorter than 5’4.
[x] I think I’m ugly sometimes.
[] I have many scars.
[x] I tan easily.
[] I wish my hair was a different color.
[] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[x] I have a tattoo.
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[] I have/had braces.
[x] I wear glasses (contacts at the moment)
[x] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[x] I’ve been told I’m attractive by a complete stranger.
[x] I have more than 2 piercings.
[x] I have had piercings in places besides my ears.
[x] I have freckles.
FAMILY -
[x] I’ve sworn at my parents.
[x] I’ve run away from home.
[x] I’ve been kicked out of the house.
[x] My biological parents are together.
[] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[x] I want to have kids someday.
[] I’ve had children.
[] I’ve lost a child.
EMBARRASSMENT -
[] I’ve slipped out a “lol” in a spoken conversation.
[x] Disney movies still make me cry.
[x] I’ve peed from laughing.
[x] I’ve snorted while laughing.
[x] I’ve laughed so hard I’ve cried.
[] I’ve glued my hand to something
[] I’ve laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
[x] I’ve had my trousers rip(because I'm a fucking fat ass)
RELATIONSHIPS -
[] I’m single
[x] I’m in a relationship.
[] I’m engaged.
[] I’m married.
[] I’ve gone on a blind date.
[] I’ve been the dumpee more than the dumper.
[x] I miss someone right now.
[x] I have a fear of abandonment.
[] I’ve cheated in a relationship.
[] I’ve gotten divorced
[x] I’ve had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back.
[] I’ve told someone I loved them when I didn’t.
[x] I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did.
[x] I’ve kept something from a past relationship.
SEXUALITY -
[x] I’ve had a crush on someone of the same sex.
[x] I’ve had a crush on a teacher.
[x] I am a cuddler.
[x] I’ve been kissed in the rain.(the most amazing kiss ever)
[x] I’ve hugged a stranger.
[x] I have kissed a stranger.
HONESTY -
[x] I’ve done something I promised someone else I wouldn’t
[x] I’ve done something I promised myself I wouldn’t.
[x] I’ve snuck out of my house.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[x] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[x] I’ve cheated while playing a game.
[x] I’ve cheated on a test.
[] I’ve been suspended from school.
BAD TIMES -
[x] I’ve consumed alcohol.
[] I regularly drink.
[] I can’t swallow pills.
[x] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem
[] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression at some point.
[x] I shut others out when I’m upset.
[x] I take anti-depressants.(not prescribed. KILLS my appetite)
[x] I’m anorexic or bulimic or have EDNOS.
[x] I’ve slept an entire day when I didn’t need it.
[x] I’ve hurt myself on purpose.
[] I’m addicted to self harm.
[x] I’ve woken up crying
[x] I’ve lost weight
[x] I’ve gained weight
[x] My weight holds me back
[x] Weight consumes me.
[] I’m at my thinnest
[x] I’m at my biggest
[] I’ve lost weight and kept it off
[x] I’ve lost weight but gained it back
[x] My weight affects my mood
[] I weigh myself daily (not at the moment)
[x] I am jealous of everyone smaller than me
[x] I thrive on compliments
[x] I feel bigger than people who are my size
[] I feel happy when I’m hungry
[x] I get depressed after I eat
[x] I’ve skipped a meal
[x] I’ve thrown food away
[x] I’ve spit food out
[x] I’ve fasted
[xx] I’ve taken diet pills
[xx] I’ve used laxatives
[x] I’ve purged(I hate it, but I had no other choice. )
[x] I exercise
[] I exercise so I can eat
[x] I work out secretly
[x] I work out daily
[x] I exercise to counteract eating
[] I’ve fainted from exhaustion
I’VE DONE -
[x] Weed
[x] Cigarettes(don't really like them, but I did it anyway)
[x] Alcohol
[x] Diet pills
[x] Pain killers
[x] Anti-depressants
[x] Ecstasy
[x] LSD
[x] Mushrooms
[x] Speed
[x] Cocaine
[x] Other(you don't want to know. I PROMISE I'm not a druggie... I just experiment. lol)
[x] I keep my eating habits a secret from those around me
[x] I have a diet blog
[x] I look at thinspo
[x] I collect thinspo(I own books full of it)
[x] I’m doing this for me
[] I’m doing this for someone
[x] I’m doing this to prove myself im strong
This was fun. It let me learn a little more about myself as well. Who's next?
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